I think Im going to discontinue blogging for the time being. I have been suffering from headaches/pain since November, and thats not a selective decision to give up when it appears that Im doing well, if I get headaches or do not feel physically fit to handle any pressures in life and continue to write well, then that was a smart decision, Ive been doing my best seeing a new psychiatrist, I have not been running as much, going through a lot of stress, with mental health issues, and need to write less, and get back to normal, I know that if Im not doing well that doesnt help anyone else, to hear from anyone who is not feeling well because of voices or self harm, I would never give up in life, or put myself in pain, or necessary hardship, and not get help, when you are not well, you wont always know what the reasons are for you not feeling well and its also not something that you can explain, disappointment is apart of life, and if your not strong enough for criticism, then its not required that you continue to challenge yourself past the point of not being respected, and its never been my intention to talk about life, like I ever didnt do my best, or was ever focused on the wrong things in life, or ever deserved to be bullied, if I ever misspoke then that would be my fault, if I was ever made to feel guilty or not a good person, that hurts me, professionally to have improved over 8 years, and to get sick again, it also hurts to not be well enough to be around people continue doing well. Im sorry if I ever experienced bipolar in public, its not something I talk about, I know everyone is busy with their own lives, not to be disappointed by anyones health issues (voices). The goal is not to give up, or self-harm, and not to connect past the point of disappointment. That much I understand, anyones rejections of me, or not seeing any improvement in me through writing. Why I stopped sharing photos. Take care everyone, and stay well, bipolar is not a common disorder, and if I dont represent someone who improved then I dont also want to be a sad story mislead anyone into thinking that being on meds is easy, or getting back to normal. Take care.
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