01-18-20
No one is making fun of anyones hardships in life, and anything concerning the records of others, is always something to be cautious about how you approach subjects and discuss in a way to which all can relate, in a balanced way, who as associated to who was affected and how. Its not always by your weakest associations in life you fail, it would be wrong to presume that in an example of a normal life, changed for worse, not able to turn for the better, is like all cases of people going through difficulties, these difficulties are special, and are unique, as by experience and association directly affected, to then try to exchange shoes with someone who as affected thinks, that’s normal that not reading into the lives of others, and correcting interjecting or trying to be like, no one ever said that I was some op ed opinion maker, making up information, that was a joke, to a less than kind quote, after pitching my idea for a campign to that specific startup, not be responded to, apparently it was me on Twitter with a famous best friend that was a joke, that eerie quiet, is not that you are unapproachable, its that arriving without a plan is intimidating to those with plans, trying to configure where you fit into the grand scheme of things storyline wise, whether things are about you and your friends, and whether anyone who is of influence is responsible for the later mischaracterizations or characterizations of them in the past or present as though always awkward, or inept socially, ill, physically, smelley, gasey, on cocaine, in recovery, sober, and when one is high or not using, and how their health can affect others, yes then under those circumstances stay home, if you are not well, don’t force yourself, to be in situation as intimidated by others, react or respond physically in a less confident way lose color, as energy is passed to the weller beside you. That’s how people work spriritually, my Mom was uncomfortable my entire graduation ceremony, I was sober at the time had attended rehab and was sitting next to a boyfriend, we got gased at graduation and in law school both times I left the room, and the ceremony, to see if it was me, it wasn’t. Talk about someone elses graduation, where the President of my School gave a speech about the Colorado government being run by White Supremacists. A little bit of a downer, at your last moment as a student at their institution, that story Ive not shared, the smell, that’s not a story to say I said and why someone who was an offender, then gased an audience, as learning from my experience as shared online, that’s making up information, to cause a connection. I think taking me to Mann Chinese Theater, was a mistake, as I was not aware of why or the purposes for to test for guilt, loss of color, body smells, loss of confidence and physical illness, ask Paramount, I was completely oblivious, in an empty lot we toured. So Im not sure, whether that was as anticipated talked about shared, and if not shared, in the defensive kept private as looking bad, I think I wasn’t sharing play by plays of my life at that point, put in a position of fear fear of others, or fear of being discussed, as the one not well spreading illness. If you think Im an embarrassment, Im not the source of heartache, and if its me not achieving not being motivational enough ask why put on so many meds, sleepy at 5, to test for attachments, as to enable what? Wellness, or to prove illness back toward me more easily, as the down or ill one.
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01-20-20
Be careful what you are inferring upon others, especially a person who has been a victim of sex defamation and discrimination from bars, someone who has worked very hard their whole lives a 3.8, 3.2s, and a 3.0 current at my best, be careful the hand you hold if for only the intent to deceive as concerning my reputation to convince someone weak of guilt and to not preserve the innocence of someone who is well deserving always reporting and seeking treatment, then you are sorely mistaken for someone who is a lost cause or a failure, or weak minded. I am not retarded I have worked hard my whole life, and if I am mute its because I so choose to be. Tonights crowd sponsored by an abercrombie zara ad by me, was totally hip and confident, not a worry in sight, solid auras and brimming with energy for a 2:30pm crowd, glad I returned to join them, after chuckling with my ear phones in at the UFC event, did not have 2 margs but only one and some chips and left a $12 dollar tip. Do your best always regardless of who is trying to play with your mind on the street and make world peace jokes, if the purple headphones are not on Im not in the mood replies beatsbydre. And if I go backwards to march in superdry its not because I have pride in having no sexual contact, but because someone I met in my driveway was forced to masturbate on film for award, and now shows up to my AA meeting and does everything they tell him to do, me included attended 30 days of recovery hospitalized off all meds, and slept every single day and every single night in bed, except for smoke breaks, my only time around people, I never socialize in the hospital and am out cold asleep its not a fun experience and not something you talk about, being put on lock down and forced to take meds, or taken off meds, and sleep all day and all night, and then wake up and attend group sessions, tired, rarely occurring. “Where did you get that” my sister enters the room to interrupt my focus, its an iPod I got it at the mall. I just took 2 hydroxyzine and 1 seroquel and 1 trazedone my night meds, don’t let anyone in the street convince you you are someone worthless or a contributory factor to the illnesses faced by others, theyre not attached to OJ and a laws student with TV Shows and movies making fun of their intelligence levels which others could leverage off of and become famous, as in competition with those viewpoints. Whos started that perspective anyways, I don’t care if you think Clueless was a culprit we lost planes, over dresses, and chicks over meds in alleyways, and I fractured my hand in a bathroom hitting my head, for what reasons are those types of pressure put on women who represent men in the industry or people in power or who have acquired infamy that’s not our fault. 01-21-20
Sometimes you get pushed to your limits in life, the best thing you can do is get help, ask for help, and speak to the right people in order to get the help you need. Sometimes things get better, and sometimes, after sharing about your past find yourself reliving old memories of what you overcame 7 years ago as a runner, in public, and how long it took for you to recover, from talking to yourself through your problems, discussion of what ails you never necessitates so much privacy that it need not be recorded, the best way to move forward is to record and move on in life, whether not shared publicly, however that gives no one the right to go through your things, if they are not given permissions to investigate your well being. Its wrong to hurt people, because you think they are being bad, or for worry of thinking they are speaking anticipating that they are not on board, or thinking poorly of others, I think such assignments, such as required by AA, were triggered discussions, about things that bothered me, not things currently bothering me, and upon sharing, became very ill, as well as sharing out loud, my dating history, you don’t realize how far you have come in life, until you are forced to divulge what brought you to recovery in the first place, that must be for the purposes of not making the same mistakes again in life, that is if it is deemed you have been in error in the past. Otherwise theres really no benefit moving forward or going back in life to resume, old friendships, if pried from you something far back to think of anything that ever bothered you, as though affecting your current outlook, or present circumstances, if you have a problem, its never because of problems past, problems that bring you to recovery are problems you have created for yourself, disabling your ability to focus, by not living as best as you can and living up to negative expectations of you, whats even worse is being wrongfully accused of not taking meds as directed and arrested in public, and refused to be allowed to drive a block home, and take your abilify and sleep, even worse when a cab drops you off a block away from home in front of an ex Sponsor’s house, since when is he out on the street when Im running by, encouraging me to return to AA, since when is it okay to be put down, then encouraged to make amends, usually its not the case that you return to places or people you feel hurt by, so for those reasons, seldom attend AA meetings, those are my home groups, but if not welcome, or too difficult to comprehend why someone from a sensitive past has shared in public, its to make sure that never again do we use a painful example as a place to talk about life from, leading back to an even graver pain, and then to lift those affected, put down the storyteller, as insensitive. I think for a personal statement, as directed its okay to mention, to share personal statement, many years later, and no longer 19 as written about, doesn’t make sense, one was my story, one was about another victim, neither story should have been told, as a beginning to a personal statement, best to start with a story about you, that does not include mention of anyone belonging to a sensitive population, later realizing now, if to help not mention who to help, or why, and if to later hashtag to help, similarly, not explain why, as soon as you get questioned in life, the answers get brought from what you have disclosed, as impetus for sharing in that fashion, then if anything piled on later, you cannot keep track of, well you become responsible for explaining what was in error, and why you looked stupid, and what you meant in the past or presently why you are not able to remain stable, even after talking to the courts and the police. I am treading very thin waters, because after disclosing I get help, then I fear others will harm me as representation of who I am being helped by as though to do them a favor, how I got hurt how I get hurt, as hurting me on behalf of those they think were or are victim to me, since when was it declared that I go after people, talk to people, openly share to anyone, its me that gets approached, on two occasions pitched and needed cocaine in LA, that’s all. #stopsuicide 01-20-20
I may not be the best socially, but I can keep up in a conversation once started. Especially if that conversation goes online, always if you have a better way of saying something, present that version of facts, not in the reverse make things more complicated in short, where there need be no added controversies, concerning the current social atmosphere. Its mostly in conversation we listen, and overhear, and listen, and sometimes think that both conversations are affecting one or the other, as listening and talking can occur at the same time, especially in groups of people. Don’t ever be disturbed by the behaviors of others, and remind yourself that its surely not about you, much of what people have to say is a reflection of how they are feeling, not necessarily words drawn upon by your presence, or based upon assumptions about others in their environment, based upon what they hear, as coincidence, or in need of correction. If you are well behaved, one should never have to worry what other people think, I think overtime, the crowds have become less and less obnoxious and/or bossy, a less strong stance is preferred, one in comfort rather than one guarded, Ive noticed. The tougher you are with accepting your environment in, the stronger you are interpersonally and professionally, as not taking things personally, and while at ease, the more approachable you become, and as approached, confidence occurs, when there no longer is a need for perfecting for acceptances or bossing for correction. Its all about how you appear, especially as a blogger, one learns that as described others will be spoken about, and in anticipation of that, sometimes others step up to plate, and make noise, to see how you respond, its just louder … that’s not always about you, sometimes, voices get louder as overheard as people are passing by you, its not directed at you never assume that. 01-21-20
For the most part things have been going well, everyone is allowed to talk in private to voice their concerns in life, that’s allowable, for arguments to be raised, but not face to face online, that’s really no ones business to see me upset, and do not think it is appropriate to be preyed upon to see if I blow up in public, or make myself look scary to scare others, by things that scare me, that would be an inappropriate use of intimidation and cause for separation of people, to make me look bad, or look ugly, to make others not like me. I waited 7 years to date again and have 2 options, and chose to keep in touch with one who was not fit to be with me, by issues, and the other, not well enough to be with me, given his personal standing as an attorney, which is why I talk to the police, there are ways of dealing with your fears that don’t need to amount to wellness illness, or fear in others, affect the happiness of others, to instill blames upon others and wait upon reactions to occur, to create visual evidence of sides and then label those viewpoints as being the same as. When it comes to mass shootings, being famous was one of the issues, so growing up next to someone infamous, it seemed, important not to enable others through a vehicle created by me, to express themselves from my shoes, so in order to enable that vehicle to be created to worsen my shoes to illness, awkwardness, gay, and something unhospitable and unsuitable for human, life, created a path for empathy which upon being stood in created a sense of illness as standing in my shoes and looking out from my vantage point. That was taking a position of wellness, and upon hearing and seeing my formulas for seeing the world upon not being strong, and making fun of me as repeated, when problem solving on my own, make things about jealously, or trying to be like, or about beauty, as though those were issues affecting my health or treatment of my throughout my life, no I was able to achieve regardless of what I looked like always popular, maybe not the most popular, but always well liked, it was never a competition for standing or wellness in my life, as Im an athlete am a team player, and accustomed to getting well and staying well by going to the gym that is how I feel well, and when not exercising I just don’t feel like myself, and finally now with time available to me, I am able to stay well, by looking and feeling good, as a means to stay well. It just so happens that like wearing a suit, when you look well others treat you special. That is something new to me, not something I ever considered as important used to toughness, and thought that was normal, being girly, or romantically involved, that started in college, new to it, never a whore, not oversexed, mostly focused on my studies. 01-20-20
I think people don’t think you have learned you lesson in representation until the cause a series of events to occur to punish you like you were knowingly an embarrassment, while doing your best, spreading gay offender jokes about you behind your back, as though you were some kind of reject to society your whole life, no that only occurs once people have an agenda, to then take sides, and at the control, make things look different or appear worse or beneficial to their own interest by sending you further astray in life to see how you respond, in those cases I need no one to get back to normal, I have my own education, I do not need help from anyone, to make me look bad in public, or look like other public speakers who have been proud of their protests and subsequent arrest in public, don’t make me one of them, I stayed home for years talking to myself, not writing, and self-harming, there was nothing that my family could do to console me at that point, that’s when you have to stop taking yourself so seriously, and focus on basic life skills, not what other people think or whether you are being made fun of. How could you give all your power away, why because no one wants to be blamed for school shootings or terrorism, its not related to my blog, I just called the police to complain. Don’t say things toward me, to raise conversations that raise hell, that’s not the solution to make things grander or bigger a problem than they are, that’s not the solution. Don’t trust people that don’t know you, if their lives don’t approve with you around, or if their luck doesn’t change with you present, and if they don’t benefit having you around, they will remove you from the equation before credited for having benefited the way things look or bringing in business to their establishment. How could you do that to someone who’s presence was accepted by all, and then treat them publicly as though they are up to no good or coding before woken up. That’s wrong, to assume that if things are about people, that they are aware that theyre being coded to. Focused in school that’s not something you think about the bigger picture, only whats in front of you to read and memorize, but now focusing on everyone else, everyone playing frozen to me, Im not making calls and prosecuting anyone, I let things go give people the benefit of the doubt, sadly the same benefit of the doubt was not returned instead trying to make me look bad as though someone who turned on industries, not helped, and not been a voice of reason later on, who else best should a story be told, than from someone who has lived though hell and back, and understands the kinds of pressures and necessity for refraining from discussion, the issues of others, especially those thrust into public light, to be picked apart by everyone, who would ever want to subject themselves, to negative opinion, that doesn’t make sense not for attentions, or for accolade, usually its out of necessity when nothing else exists to say no, no I don’t think that’s appropriate to subtly make fun of people, why not allow all to contribute now. That is without saying, it is wrong to cause harm to reputations of others, and if my reputation was harmed, then clearly it is expected that I bring no one into my life, situating me so that others are harmed as I was harmed to prove I put people at risk of harm, I committed suicide first, that’s not because my life was hell, things are WAY beyond repair at this moment, just as things get better, those opposed wish for you to resume a worse off life, Im not an offender, I get my record expunged 2020, I got sent to the computer shop, to fix my phone, I got sent to HarvardStone, and I got served a check outside, why? And I called the police to give me a ride home from the bar because I could not drive, and had no money. Its not what it looks like, you see police and think Im up to no good, I don’t care if you give up on me, I don’t need to be here in the first place as unwelcome, just say you don’t want to serve me, and I can leave (2013). Why was that already the case, leaving law school. I was not famous then or with fans. My error was going out, after a pen pals recent purchase, then approached, if out, the that looks like available, even as friends, makes me look bad, and breaks his heart, learning is a process, the best matches are when I stay put, and not a risk, to care about, that’s the main lesson, after self-harming today, it took me a long time to figure out where I went wrong, as a risk to health of others as out, and to myself, as leaving a happy place in life, for worse off, looking bad, or looking for more, or looking for love, with love, one should be content home. Tough day today, enough said, something no one can help me with, staying well when things are going well, and keeping the faith sticking to what works. -This happened after the Asia Trip too, big deals, that perfect air. Means stay put, disciplined.
Im sorry. Leslie Fischman 11-13-19
11-11-19 Ari Emanuel is “an American talent agent and the co-CEO of William Morris Endeavor (WME), an entertainment and media agency. [1] Endeavor Agency is his new agency founded “after the merger of the William Morris Agency,” WME represents “artists in movies, television, music, theater, digital media, and publishing. [2] According to deadline.com, “June 1, 2019 marks the official 10-year anniversary of the William Morris Agency-Endeavor merger.” [3] WME is one of the top agencies according to the observer.com, with clients “Ben Affleck, Charlize Theron, Amy Adams, and Martin Scorsese.” [4] Another agency is UTA, which was “founded in 1991 following the merger of Bauer-Benedek and Leading Artists.” [5] UTA’s clients include: “Angelina Jolie, Channing Tatum, Chris Pratt, and Mariah Carey.” [6] -Where does mymollydoll.com stand in the mix, as a friend of the Son who’s father founded UTA, he was the one who helped get me sober December 2006, and attended rehab shortly thereafter at Boulder Community Hospital, later graduating with Honors Cum Laude in Sociology, at CU Boulder. One of Bauer’s client’s Jim Carrey was recently struck by the suicide of his girlfriend, similarly we were recently struck with the suicide of Saoirse Kennedy Hill, a mental health advocate [7] and Asian pop star and beauty icon “Sulli.” As soon as I heard the news, I checked myself into UCLA Resnick Neuropsychiatric Center, for Bipolar, and attended an IOP, which I finished, and signed an agreement with UCLA, asked to speak about my recovery, my social worker told me that is was the fastest recovery she’s ever seen. After speaking to the LAPD twice in front of my house, leading up to that point, they decided to hospitalize me. Meanwhile, back at the Laker Game, Ari Emanuel kept, moving around, eventually with his hand on his chin, and friend gesturing, I thought his friend mouthed something toward me ... meanwhile opposite their bench area, I saw someone who looked like a character from the TV Show Jersey Shore, with a Birkin bag, at his feet. What about Kate Spade? Of course I was traumatized by her passing, I had attended a birthday party in Las Vegas in Louboutins (August 2008) and was told that David Spade was present in the audience, while Dita Von Teese danced in a Martini glass, I sat alone at the bar drinking, attended with my boyfriend and friends. -After the school shootings it was me who flew to DC twice for $2000, and met with the US Supreme Court, writing down what happened in Law School, explaining to them why I was not graduating and ended up crying. I don’t think that blogging is the only solution to combat hate, but it certainly does an excellent job of bringing the people together on subjects via hashtags, Id like to think that I was someone, who with permissions from the court, was able to put together a tech savy series of campaign(s) via quotes and fashion and music and movie jokes, to help kick start everyone in the right direction, including the sharing of my law school notes. I’m sure by connections, others have been equally affected mental health wise, whenever you are so dedicated to a cause, anything occurring not in alignment with the best interests of others, calls attention to those who are in the middle of the spotlight, and doing their best to shed light on the issues, without rehashing too many negatives, or triggering other parties directly affected by the issues. At this point we may not all know eachother, but we all know eachother well enough to understand the ramifications of mental health issues, and the necessity for causes to protect the well being of those who are doing well in life, to serve as cornerstones to our positive self-development, and not shed light on issues such as addiction and recovery which have plagued many in the past, and led often to times to their demise, and/or death. -What do you think when you see Ari Emanuel, obviously still confident, not as confident or as comfortable as him, but having met SCOTUS, I have a very strong sense of faith, and have taken on a more conservative approach to the wellness of those around me, blogging my best work, intended for books, not for notoriety, or for sharing and stories, shocking or accusatory toward others. That would not be the solution, to wrongfully accuse others who have equally been affected, as being the cause of anyones hardships, or point blames toward those who as they are coming up in life, met with discord, or dissatisfaction, or offended by their sense of comfort and being online and likeability, that has nothing to do with who I knew growing up, and has never affected who I have mentioned or followed, as though by agency only nice to. I am nice to everyone, and get along sound with everyone, and by my issues, maybe some have been able to relate, and those who can relate is not only limited to those who have experienced hardship, its not all about recovery, meeting attendance is important, but its not the end all be all of your ability to survive, you have to be conscious of your wellness and how it affects the wellness of others, and you should always only show up if youre doing well, that’s a great rule of thumb when it comes to public appearances, and if you cant work, don’t work, blogging is my primary form of work, besides working in film distribution on the Lot with Showtime and OWN, whats my connection, my job, and losing a Shorty Award to HBO, which makes my job funny. -If there is any advice I could give to onlookers, it would be to stay strong, work hard, and to focus on yourself, when things get crazy, these losses have had a tremendous affect on the way people do business in each industry Im sure, and its obvious more resources are needed to help other begin to cope with their mental health issues, and stop blaming those for their ability to recover in life, as contributing to the social ills in society, as though their recovery or inability to recover puts them at fault for any illness or suffering by anyone who has committed suicide. I take responsibility for my blogging, I call the police, often they know my stats, and get help whenever I hear voices, that doesn’t mean that I should not be able to blog, it means I help. -Its those who dont care dont get help, and dont fix themselves, or try to better themselves (getting certified) to help others, thats the difference between an advocate or someone who helps to make themselves look better, or to undo a wrong they have done, look like part of the majority, not without permissions who cant help others. What I'm doing online is writing, communicating, and helping to clear the air, not to add more hardships to the table, than there already are, or have been faced. There are many obstacles to being successful one things thats required is being politically correct. References: [1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ari_Emanuel [2] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Endeavor_(company) [3] https://deadline.com/2019/05/william-morris-agency-endeavor-merger-where-are-they-now-1202618487/ [4] https://observer.com/2017/11/hollywood-talent-agencies-wme-uta-apa-icm-info-details/ [5] https://observer.com/2017/11/hollywood-talent-agencies-wme-uta-apa-icm-info-details/ [6] https://observer.com/2017/11/hollywood-talent-agencies-wme-uta-apa-icm-info-details/ [7] https://www.eonline.com/news/1061825/saoirse-kennedy-hill-opened-up-about-suicide-depression-and-sexual-assault-3-years-before-death [8] https://www.washingtonpost.com/world/asia_pacific/k-pop-singer-found-dead-in-suspected-suicide-highlighting-mental-health-pressures/2019/10/14/1e69a8de-ee67-11e9-bb7e-d2026ee0c199_story.html 379 Likes via blogpros.com 11-27-19
Ive had a few pen pals on messenger over the years, one Trump Account, sent a Book to Avenatti, during the Stormi Crisis, and even messaged Lebron James, regarding my previous campaign, where Ive been in life, and where Im going in life, what my plans are. In in between phases in life, sometimes talking to those in the other world, the successful world helps, to get ideas going, and to get your hyper energy back. Its not that its exciting to talk to people who are wildly successful, but you wonder, if they go through the same daily struggles that you do, coping with the present times, and finding their own way in life. Ari reflects that uncertainty, with his recent “IPO collapse.” Whats an IPO collapse? An IPO is a public offering [1], so when latimes.com was referring to an “IPO collapse” that means that he decided not to go public with his company. There are many reasons why a company decides not to go public. It has more to do with "business model" [2] fundamentals not so much to do with who his clients are or have been, in case you were wondering. As he is linked to “President Trump and Michael Moore, Martin Scorsese and Oprah Winfrey.” [3] He is the father of four, and the youngest of three, and has two brothers, one who worked as Obama’s first chief of staff, and the other a Harvard educated oncologist, we have nothing in common, except for the fact that my Brother taught at Harvard and was a Harvard Doctor, and we grew up friends with the Son of the Founder of UTA, another talent organization in Hollywood, Im not sure that makes us a connection in life, or even a distant one. But when I heard that one of his client’s is Michael Moore, I immediately knew, where I got my zest from on Twitter all these years telling movie and book jokes, and writing quotes to pass the time, 5 years of writing on Twitter before working on my first book, I assembled 2017, approved by Brady Campaign and FEMA, as a FEMA student, to write a book. I call the police often, I get paranoid, it would be very egregious to say that Im an advocate, after growing up around OJ, that’s not why, I was a crisis hotline counselor in Boulder 2004, certified, so this is my niche, not something new, but second nature to respond. I don’t think I responded in the best way, posting flyers on poles down Sunset blvd, and Hollywood blvd, in front of the Mann Chinese theater, police offices, saw me taping flyers and smiled, they said BRADY MUSIC CAMPAIGN, and mymollydoll.com on top, and my recent stats at the bottom. When the times get tough it helps to have everyone on one side, we did well for many years, but there have been recent shootings, that have really taken their toll on everyone spiritually and emotionally, of that Im sure. Especially to those who have followed me over the years, wondering what to do next, how to reset the tone, to help prevent violence in the community, and even fires. Im sure that’s probably how Ari Emanuel may have heard of me, but Im no Michael Moore, I worked for the Government at age 22, at the LA City Attorneys Office, a paralegal, so I have a much different vantage point, “1151 subsequent remedial measures are inadmissible as evidence for misconduct” … doing something seemed more important than doing nothing, and leaving law school to fly to DC twice for $2000, seemed like a good option, to be apart of discussions in DC, isn’t that where all our laws are made? I never planned to be a controversial figure as someone who cares, I think that its in everyones best interests to care, but can see how it can be draining, to not feel like your winning in life, or to feel like youre losing in life, if there are additional instances, that prove your efforts futile or not good enough. I assure you that showing up, and addressing those harms, are more beneficial than saying nothing at all. I even tried to start a Shorty Awards campaign, and got nominated for an award for my blogging online, and website building. Although my website at the time, was not fully evolved, it’s the thought that counts, even lost a best friend in the process of campaigning, Im sure being in the middle of everything did not make it any easier for her at the time. They even put me in the hospital twice, when they released her Father from prison, did they time that? Sometimes I wonder what is expected of others to hear when they hear something about someone, what things are made to look like, and whether on the outside, things are made to look a certain way so that no matter what is said, on paper, it looks like someone got released and someone put in, for what flyers? For caring? For volunteering? That’s not a big idea, and that’s not having a big head, that’s volunteer work, that’s not trying to make money, direct money, manage crowd, gather a crowd, or be bigger than I am as a person, it would be wrong to think that anyone who does care, is caring for the sole purpose of making a side, being on a side, or creating a side in life, that suits them, or helps to defend self or others, I didn’t have to do anything, I could have finished my JD, I started the semester, and left. Sometimes people don’t know when to stop, and usually they don’t stop, until things look just the way they want them too, so whether they are around or not, they have made their point, or brought someone so far down, to see what they are made of, as broken, whether angry, hostile, agitated, or resentful, I took myself to Didi Hirsch that’s the hospital that got recommended to me, after being hospitalized 9x, my Father was hospitalized too, why I got a job, to keep moving forward, I don’t think anyone should be brought down in life, to make a point, or to label someone of bad influence in life, then don’t care, forget I posted flyers, and who cares if I die or commit suicide then, is that what you want to hear? Someone worthless, who cared, and die in that memory, or die, as someone who cared, and did their best, and was deemed worthless to a few, who put her down in life. Do you understand how embarrassing that was for me, deflate what ego? That doesn’t apply to me, Im not an alcoholic or a drug addict, Ive had problems, but briefly, not over the years, and my mental health issues, have to do with the embarrassment, of being put in rehab, while in law school, and losing respect from my family, and my best friend, that was a huge let down. So no I don’t think that Im a positive connection in life, anymore, personally, because of what Ive been through and because of how many times I was embarrassed in public, but you don’t see me overreacting about it in life upset, or disgruntled … exactly what are you trying to prove, trying to upset me, hurt my image, and ruin my self-esteem? That Im some crazy Jewish girl, or mentally ill, or a slut, -I can do better than this. Im graduating from Law School, whether you like or not, and if I so desire to can go for a PhD, and wrote two books. When youre dying youre dying, and it feels like theres no coming back, that’s mental illness, and when you regain conscious awareness of your blessings in life and try again, that’s a huge step in the right direction, fighting with how you are treated, and about what meds you get put on, puts you nowhere in life, but below others, who are more well adjusted than you, that’s life! ~Why they say to take it "one day at a time." References: [1] https://www.google.com/search?q=ipo&rlz=1C5CHFA_enUS825US826&oq=ipo&aqs=chrome.0.0l2j69i60j0j69i60j0.751j0j4&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 [2] nymag.com/intelligencer/2019/09/what-the-collapse-of-weworks-ipo-means.html [3] https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/business/story/2019-09-29/for-brash-deal-maker-ari-emanuel-ipo-collapse-is-a-rare-stumble-and-his-biggest-challenge-yet |
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