No one is high enough in any ranks in life to be immune from defamation and permanent damage to my reputation what others think or feel looking at me, and seeing me as less then, no book writing, or job, can undo that harm, all the progress I made doing everything right in life, lost, that’s being put down in life, because I allowed someone to hurt my life made good again, whats that for that’s not deserved and who are you acting on or behalf of, as though my stomach issues have anything to do with you, I go through a lot mental health wise, used to projectile vomit foam, my throat blew up into a ball and you don’t hear me complaining or blaming anyone for not feeling well, or crying on the bathroom floor hitting my head bleeding, encouraged to apply for a job, told that being sued is not a big deal, notified that I was being dramatic. So excuse me for a moment of weakness when I needed encouragement, never did I think for a minute when I did not need help from anyone and well on my way to getting likes and being 100% accepted as someone easy to know, did my life take a turn for the worst, and so will history have it lives were lost and put in harms way, that’s not only being declared a loser etc, but purposeful to result in a risk of loss to your own life caused by embarrassment, size you up in life to amount to nothing, so much public support that I did not need, nice, but not something I shunned as that would be insulting, if I am made to feel sick, that’s because he was not the President and someone else, nothing to do with your face so don’t publish a bunch of rotten photos of me online and subject me to jail or institution and then say you were overreacting, I never looked better than anyone, and yes everyone will always be doing better than me in life, Ive never been competitive with women my whole life, nor have I ever excluded anyone, who was ever down and out, or didn’t have many friends, at odds with anyone in life, Ive never made anyone feel different, I accept all people, and I don’t need connections, I don’t need money, and I don’t need help getting into schools or getting a job, be given courtesies in life or benefits of doubts based upon who I know as though that’s to explain whatever later behavior transpired as being an experience to cause me to speak on behalf of others who willingly had sex in a way publishable, in a format created professionally by someone for sale, money paid for its keeping, that was then, I defended them every step of my way in life, have never bothered them, nor ever influenced them to think of themselves as any less, and if you think its funny to treat me as wealthy or popular Im not, so who are you teaching a lesson to in life that I have not already learned on my own. And if you don’t believe me then Im applying for basic training and going off all my medications and run like Im in rehab at dana pointe everyday, what I was told basic training is like, you run a lot. So don’t accuse me of being a fraud, I went to law school and combined with every other mental health issue I later came to suffer as a result of drinking or misunderstanding distance to me, made that my focus in life instead school, and even if finishing law school was my dream, losing $7000 and made to take photos nude demanded from me, will not cause me suicide, but it does create a permanent image of me that cannot be removed from the minds of others, something grose, not in a respectful way published about someone who has suffered enough on meds, abiding by every treatment of me, never standing up for myself, listening, and accepting others the way they are. So be strong for what, its for me, because I was made to slam my head into a door, that’s having come so far in life, then someone making me out to be some sexual offender, as though that’s not what is basic to acceptances from a man for love, attraction to see what you look like, no nudity is required, you can go online a find a professional who is not known by mind, face, and name online, so everywhere I go people look at me like a reason to “dethrown USA,” that’s not my fault that I was made to pose nude, I was not well known respected 2015 October 31 by hook-up Marchello, known well enough to have been “spied” on or be treated as a disappointment to anyone looking through my photos or records and claim that I was ever performing to a private audience or in an offensive was performing to a private audience in my phone, by photos deleted not sent, that’s treating me like every form of saving my life, was not done so in a safe record-keeping way, every photo beautiful even a cell phone stolen living in Westwood (and tires popped not by me, car in the garage in westwood gated), -bathing suit photos, then my body changed in Santa Monica (stocky) (and my first Porsche backup hard drive went missing stored in my desk it was silver with all my Twitter posts from 2013 everything saved and dated), so excuse me for not ever being alarmed and simply doing my best to keep my body in shape, why is that important to anyone anyways what I look like that’s not my fault, what happens to the bodies of others, not if my head is big and my body petitie, means that I studied hard, and took good care of myself, no matter what breakups I went through lost weight the right way, so rearrange my face, and change my body all you want, but its not okay to trash me by photo, or after all I have been through control me and treat me was stupid as though I did not grow up with learning disability myself and never took medications for it until college, that’s defamation, your heart breaks and you try harder in life, still your positive self, but not social, studying for 5 hours a day in cubicles, that’s not being a political figure in school and that’s not being a problem to others, or trying to make myself well known, in a town where a princess was already well known to have passed: a princess. So yes that was a job, that was on internships.com the website I used to get jobs from, who actually interviewed and hired me, usually on other websites none reply, probably not good enough as an applicant with enough work experience, and once said maybe it was because I don’t speak Spanish, that’s not racism. I understand now that everything as it looks is a make it or break it moment for others, and gets used as a justified caused for attacking me, as though I have the energy to fight with people who don’t like me, if you don’t like me and I don’t represent you or your cares in the world, then its not necessary for anyone to read my website for that matter, its only for the purposes of not allowing harms to continue where something can be said, that can help others to make better sense respect wise for us: and what “Freedom of Assembly” is for, even if it takes us (2009-2020) to finally get things down, and trust whos up top, rather than treat anyone without work experience credible to be considered the voice of reason to whom at this point, whoever is attacking me, who no longer is, that took 5 months of hard work to get back to smart again, there is no tunnel labeled for you in life to exit a fight that’s being made to be about you, those are beliefs held to be about you you cant change, so don’t punish me in anyones good name in life not even your own, my life was not worth trashing online, and no ones life was worth trashing online, who did not symbolize what it means to be a girl/or a woman in todays day in age, if youre a man, then we are not for your experiment, not by the time we are all getting along and made to feel safe again, don’t treat me like a traitor, and don’t put me down in life to serve as an example of another book published by someone more famous to me, “to not take things personally,” a book recommended by Bauer in one of my more lost moments in life, bought, an editor later contacting me on Twitter offering to edit for me, if I could afford the fee, I paid some. The money I received from the government was to go toward book writing, pay for my website update and move, and for editing fees to publish and be distributed become known in mainstream media a professional Author, how dare you hurt my ability to earn a wage in life, creating a job for myself, because you think things are about you, what about President Trump, who probably needed light and messages more than anyone who ever though I was something created in evil, a mistake, or some bastard of a child, if I was born, I was born, and meant to be here, who made you the purveyor of human beings for duplication, Im not Eminem. Leave me alone! Don’t destroy myself, don’t teach me a lesson, don’t situate me to get me to talk about how other people see the world, and treat me like I don’t understand what the public is like, very loving, not mean at all, never in my life, and why start now. That’s being “nude” treated like a homewrecker, well do you want to take this to Texas, I will call right now, I tried calling your DA but the line was busy, so figure that much out in life, and don’t call me a “schizoid” and hang me from a tree in life, like I haven’t served my country long enough or worked hard enough to shelter anyone from feeling like the world is coming to an end, its not, that’s just when leadership is taking a back seat in observance to see how we are dealing with our issues, and what can be handled on an individual basis and not out loud, then take the rest of my edd.gov $6000 and he declined, still emailing me. I don’t have this persons name so I cannot take this person to court, never again in my life make a “no means no joke” about me or my company or identity, why I was slamming my head into the door repeatedly 5 months later, but that harm cannot be done, being treated like an offender by showing my body half nude, and those are people who will never be forgiving of you, those who have lost respect for you, or those who feel harmed by you. So not its not okay to hurt me, set me up to be some Stormy Daniels joke, like I wasn’t assigned to work for a film company to which she was a client, an obvious conflict of interest, don’t treat me as trying to be famous, that’s not how you become famous, and certainly by not putting me jail in front of 17 million people does that make you a hero or apart of any of my success in life here forward, that’s not how to help someone, that how people get lost and burn out in life, that’s unnecessary fighting, just as you cannot be perfected by anything I have to say, nothing that you have done to me on Facebook can take back the times I have been punching my head and slamming my head into doors, when respect of me was lost, you don’t know what I looked liked, what I went through, in order to be pretty again, you don’t know the half of it. So don’t make a mymollydollfan.com website, and make jokes about me, and treat me like a shame or mentally ill, and put me on mental health hashtags making fun of me, youre not my doctor, I don’t have to respond to you, you did not care about me, you did not love me, and I am doing everything in my power to take you to court, even if it means sending every email to a detective and the US Supreme Court for review, among those who were harmed, when I was made to look stupid, money to meet Leonardo Dicaprio, and talked to Joaquin Phoenix, that’s being nice to people, that has nothing to do with sex and love, and if Im not into someone who is not 100% into me, that means that its not a match, so when someone becomes disinterested in you, and you start talking to someone else, that’s them not needing you, so don’t treat me as the problem, its your problem with me, is the reason Im not going anywhere in life, then take all the money what the F do I care, and leave me the F alone. I don’t want a fan site. I don’t want to be famous, and I audition for NBC’s “The Voice” I can choose another career don’t put me down in life and treat me as a cheater, if theyre not into me theyre into someone else, and that’s why Im not married, so leave things alone, and stop criticizing my humanity, or cause me to talk ab out anything you think is the “kernel: secret” something not said that equals “or amounts to everything later said, as though that’s a special effect in writing, to know something and then apply everything that has been written to mean about without saying then analyze every word to see if its trying to secret a meaning only known to a few, I write as clear as possible, theres no beauty intended in that. That’s being professional. So don’t treat me as a “starfucker” or wannabe in life, who gets f-ked or does others wrong as though I know who famous people are in college or what their story is beyond what is published about them in permanent form by film, movie, or song, recognize any patterns, Im sure just by looking at me, taking life seriously, one wonder what Im like having fun, if I wanted to drink and snort an 8 ball of cocaine I would a lose all my smarts be hearing voices, and numb in bed, crying upon wakening up, windows sealed shut by the steam heaters, not able to move when I wake up, and be made fun of for it by Whoopi Goldberg, who described having a life changing experience using similar to my own experience with cocaine addiction, immobile, disconnected, no friends, in my room, asleep all day, not going to class, not functioning, that’s addiction: not being able to perform and not knowing what things are not going right for you in life, that’s you giving up on yourself, that’s not because of friends or lovers, that means no one loves you, no one stays, and your not presentable enough to sit in a club booth to a club that was taken over by someone I was dating who I saw upon walking in standing there, left home on weekend in my bed crying. So when is your life like “Truman Show” the minute you have no one, do you become mentally ill, do you get paranoid, do you get love, do you scare others, are you inappropriate, probably, why Joaquin Phoenix was filmed walking into the back of a bar, I took photos on my computer in at the bar over their fire place, and now I look old, and now my face is not tight, and now I don’t shine, and now no one thinks Im pretty, and now my body is trashed, where to go from here, well if the worst hasn’t happened yet, not make things worse for me or others, trying to prove like I was ever a good example in life of someone who took good care of themselves no matter who stayed.
#stopsuicide (Dont worry everything important has been forwarded to the US Supreme Court, and not subject myself to being in the wrong ever again in life, not connect with anyone, no dating no friends, stay home). www.mymollydoll.com/removed-posts/in-a-help-or-get-hurt-world I don't get away with anything in life, and someone doing me wrong in life, doesnt do anything to help me. No one can keep you out of harms way by putting you in harms way, thats knowing you, and by how they feel after knowing you even if it online, attacking you like youre "done," or havent waited been good, thats letting someone who you come to trust on a social level talking to, who makes an executive decision to see if you die suicidal, and thats too much power to give to any one person, who does not need to cover for me, or hold any secrets for me, I dont need any favors in life, and Im sorry if when well that was enough for someone to accept me, not push me over any edges in like Im a burn out a failure or the cause for any bad luck suffered by anyone, I keep to myself and will continue to keep to myself, Im sorry for ever being well enough for love and Im tired of being punished in life thats not doing anyone any favors in life, thats the police's job, the courts job, to punish people, not your job, if there was ever anything wrong with me, I dont force myself to connect with anyone Im not well enough to connect with, and if I am made to connect past the point of feeling sick or tired, whereever that disappintment is coming from, you dont need to finish me off, if Im not going up, I will NEVER be famous, and that was NEVER my goal.
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