You cannot move forward if in retaliation others bring up incidences past in defense of others, or treat you as in the side opposition made to look worse than in the past as the side opposed to, when you were once conservative any oddities stand out to you that was 2008, later in 2009 those oddities if they pile up can cause further illness, those were my arguments then when I later needed help and sought help those incidences were used to make me look like I needed help turned on, upon disclosing my problems to others, that’s an unwanted retaliation upon someone who was otherwise independent of others, made to be less than others, and by making someone less than others appear bigger of better than and leave me worse off, then compare my past as though I was affected while younger and then as older … held those resentments and that those resentments were any driving force in life … that’s not how to achieve in life by remembering your past, if you have things to remember they are called upon by your memory or triggered by others an in memory of you … that is how the mind works … you cannot control what people think you an only control what you think, and if as told or untold people are memorizing stories about you to match what they think and then re-trigger stories about you now, to further the thoughts now of your past, to see if others come forward and none come forward then it is not me who is offender but an unwanted retaliation upon me, and for each instance in which I was made sick in retaliation to false ideas about me, I am therefore not responsible for the illnesses of others that followed in thinking less of me and because less of me was thought, I did not deserve to be punished it is for those reasons upon reasons I committed suicide 2009 and its not my fault.
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